who was I trying to kid.

It was never anything more. Obviously I wouldn't think of being together, but it wasn't meant to be good friends either? Better friends? Don't know. Not supposed to care. Just another ant in the colony. Wish wish.

Keep my head up. I know what I must do.

I need something written down to remind me of my position and the thoughts I'm meant to have.

Firstly: Timothy, friends. That's all that's ever wanted. Not more than friends, not super good friends, not biased in any sense, no better than anyone else, just friends.

Secondly: accept him. You have no right to question his actions. You are not perfect. He is not perfect. Nobody is. Learn to love.

Lastly: Look to You. You picked this song for gracehaven. It speaks. Look to God. Do your QT more.

okay.

Don't read too hard; the Art of simplicity. Is it really this way? Your choice.

Entropy.

Its rather unbelievable someone your age acted the way you did. Come on, just move. Is this what the eastern society and culture is? Why can't we all get along together, why can't we show some compassion towards each others, why can't we be polite. I mean none of us are perfect, we all make mistakes, but we have to try right? Maybe its just a bad time for you.

We all need to learn to be nice with strangers; the innocence of kids. I like people who can smile at strangers and be courteous. Is it the eastern culture that brings on social degradation? Children can be such dears at times. Sometimes they aren't shy to make conversation with a stranger or even smile and wave at them, why can't adults share these same characteristics as children.

Maybe its just the timing. Maybe. We all must change; entropy and pain.

Oh.

Wow.

Hmm.

Yeah.

must learn to love.

amicus.

So, what is it exactly that you want from me?